I like roller coasters, but not when it's my emotions!!
Had a wobble today after being on an upward turn. Was doing just fine when a few wee stresses here and there have sent me crashing tonight!
It's been ages since there have been tears and I was so low that I did cry. Caught me by surprise I can tell you! It's been a while.
Had a brainstorm, of those old nagging negative thoughts, like is this how it's going to be? Is there nothing more and if so what is the point?! :?
Then the real stinkers started like no-body cares, wants to know... loves you, your useless, ugly, so why even bother? bla, bla, bla.... I know that there will be folk out there knowing where I am coming from, so rather than just stewing over it, I used some of the CBT I've done and then I fired up the PC to do this post, for my sanity sake!!
I know that there wil be ups and therefore the downs, but I thought that I was more up...
Just shows me that I have a way to go, but I am going to make it! I am not getting this far and throwing in the towel! I think since I am having a bit more trouble sleeping that isn't helping so I will have to see if I can improve there.
As usual its alway good to \"talk\"! I know (and hope!) that things will be better in the morning and if there are any other folk out there having a bad day, that goes for them also!
.... time to switch off