Hi everyone. I have been diagones with bi-polar and after 5 months of citalopram my doctor has finally started me on quetapine. Not sure what to expect really. The anti depressants have had little effect on me and have been to hell and back. Going from the lows and jumping to the highs and drinking and spending and destroing my family and myself has been hell on earth. I have been started on 50mg slow releasing tablets. Fingers crossed im on the road to some sort of normal life. Here's hoping!
Hi Hell on earth-how are you managing with the quetiapine?
I was on the slow release tablets. Ive not been diagnosed with anything other than abusing alcohol! Shopping far far too much, and wow , up and down! Okay other things are happening-but are you getting a balance on things yet? I found the slow release tablets not great so i take the normal release tabs, and im on a very low dosage. What im trying to say is if the slow release ones dont make much difference ask for normal!
If i dont take it im back to being up at around 2 am and thinking crazy thought. If i take it I sleep and my day is altogether better, not brill, just better. But ive so much going on that i worry that i should really be \"feeling\" more!
hey, i get the blame for breaking my family apart also. Ive 2 children and a psychotic ex who says\"its all my fault\". Im learning just to laugh at this coment!
Anyway, hope you find a balance sometime soon! Take care!
hi tiny tears. Thanks for your reply. The quetiapine is having little effect other than making me shattered all the time. I havent been able to work for 5 months and hoped this may be my way back, maybe not! Im so ill and fear that i may harm myself and very scared off what im gonna do next. Life is really tough and im becoming scared too leave the house because of my anxiety. I live in my own little world and no one can get in, not even my wife. Any bi polar sufferers out there please reply and give me some help!
Hi Hel on earth...have the doctors upped your dose yet? Ive found the tiredness wears off eventually!
Also though , like a true zombie i find myself walking to the fridge at 4 am in the morning, and making meals for me to eat. ive aten so much at this time in the morning, that ive laid down and waite dfor my food to disgest, thinking thats tuffing myself would help me back to sleep, but generally i jsut feel uncomfy and guilty, so I hope this stopss soon! It sounds really silly, but its like I cant control my behaviour!
hi tiny tears. I know what you mean about the eating i cant stop either. Im seeing my phsyc on monday so will hopefullly have my sose changed. I feel so hungover all the time without the benefit of actually having a drink. I think i scared my wife last night as i was so manic i couldnt get my words out and couldnt sit still. Paying for it today as i have come crashing back down and feel really low. Hows life at home for u? hope things are ok hun. Speak soon x x
Hi Hell On Earth-how are you coping now?
Hmm, im a bit up and down! I mean I got up today, and thought to myself, \"I want to be with the girls\" One wantd to go swiwmming the other wanted to shop. I took the eldest shopping and spent too much money on tiys for her!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I came home, saw no point in the day, put my jammies back on and went to bed, got up watched a film. Im also living in my own little world permanently. its not intentional its away of coping ( i think!). Though I think with the children, I am managing better, I can now at least understand their trail of thinking instead of obsesing about whats happening or has happened!
Anyways, hope things improve for you and good luck for mOnday!
hi tiny tears. my shrink put me on 300mg from 50mg. started them today and o my god! within an hour i felt like i was on crack and couldnt even speak. feel totally smashed out of my brains. someone please tell me this wont last!
Hey Hell on earth -thats a massive increases from 50mgs, upto300mgs.....should they not measeure you out on it first? Surely it would be safer to ween you on them gradually-or does this drug not work like that?
I took 5 25mgs last night - be ause they dont seem to be working as well as they were...ive not told anyone either and when i run out im going o have to bite my bottom lip and bear it. I ll just have to keep to the medicated dose rather than self prescribe-but god , its hard for me at the moment!
Remeber hel on earth its your life, YOu dont want to feel like youve taken crack so maybe ease yourself on them yourseflf......Or ring your psyc up and tell them exactly how you are feeling, it may just pass.
hi tiny tears. Really struggling on this dose. Felt hungover all day and i am eating for england. They make me feel so out of it and my legs are so restless. what u gonna do when u run out of tablets hun? i know i couldnt get through a day without mine. Be careful taking more than prescribed hun. Hope to hear from u soon. Shame we cant swap emails or something. Keep smiling.
Hy Hell On Earth! How are you?
I need to rant!
My mum has used my children as blackmail to get me to go to hers! Ive never felt the need to sayNO! Like I want to right now! I dont want to go because the enviroment is so different , hers is heavenly, but i cant handle her moaning about materialistic things. Ive been crying and im angry at the girls because hse hasnt directly asked me, but mbypassed them to get me to go to hers. I know she cares, but she need me to exercise my right to say\"No!\" Which ive never been allowed to do.
Ive been taking my normal dosages of drugs becuas ei dont know how i would cope without them and im pure mental to dy.
On the school wall read in grafettis \" I am a slut\" Right abov my head and it made me really angry! I had to leave my girls in the payground and hurry home. I even recognise the handwriting but cant place it!
Ive woke with a crokaed neck and a really bad bruise on my shoulder and i have no idea what i did!
Ive got to admit, im on 10 cit also and i think i should be on a highger dose as its doing nothing for me, but then when i was on 20 I felt so imbalanced that I drank more to help and that made me worse. Flippin what is wrong with me?
I have been reading about catatonia and think ive been this, is this? Not sure , you could almost read anything and say thats you could nt you? Im sure we all walk away from reading these thinking , thinking , thats me, that is :roll: :roll: :roll: :roll: This is different though-i cant explain how. It just is!
Mu uni course satrted back yesterday and its shot me down as i really want to be therer!
I don tknow if its this stuff- or the situations im in-but i am sleeping all the time! When Im up I get my girls to school and hobble a bit as my foot is really sore- then if iam not working I crash, if i go to work im reallytired and uninterested in anything anyone has to say to me! I have waited and waited for the fiscal to respond to my disgusting report- no response. i feel like someone has injected a poison into me that is making me really paranoid!
I know what i say happened to me and i still cant believe it again- but this time was different as they are. i cant get rid of the feelings of how disgusting i must be and why it kees happening.
When I had children I promised not to let my low confidence issues get in their way. i kept that promise! But right noew I see double- I saw my psychs today and she is a lovely woman but soon as we started to talk about what really was going on in my head i saw double, i mean 2 of her 2 of the desk 10 million seats and felt just sick! I want to sleep more now than ever!Yet I have to be here for my children! Im closed in!
Hi all ,
My question is , when are you supposed to take them in the Morning or at night ? My psychiatrist put me on them at night it is supposed to stop me from having nightmares and in the mornings I can hardly walk as my legs don't have any strength in them , but they don't stop the nightmare either .
I am seriously thinking of giving them up .
All and any advice is welcome ,
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