Hi just found this site, don't know if anyone will reply to this and for some reason bit scared of postin it (but tend to be scared of most things at the moment for no reason). I have suffered from depression for 4 years now, which isn't that long but has felt like a lifetime. I have been on flueuxatine (think thats how u spell it) which made me feel worse which made me hurt myself so the dr quickly took me off it. For the most part I have been on mirtazapine, which the first time I took it helped me alot but then it seemed to stop helping me. Was on the highest dose of mirtazapine and still felt no different so the dr gave me sentraline.
It took me a week and a half to start takin them as I get scared when I start new tablets (mainly because of the effect the fluexatine had on me). Only took my second tablet today and I know it takes a couple of months for them to kick in, but I suppose Im just lookin for a little bit of hope. I feel like this is just something I am never goin to get rid of and no matter how hard I try it keeps coming bak and each time it does it gets harder to cope with. I would just like to know if anyone has ever properly got over this or is it something that just hangs over you forever? I feel so alone and hopeless and I just want to feel normal again, I'm sick of feeling like this and just wish it would all go away and I could be happy. I just feel so useless and angry with myself all the time. I either don't sleep or sleep for hours, don't eat or eat everything I can and am petrified of leavin my house if I am alone (which most of the timeI am as I live alone), I even panic if someone knocks on my door when I am not expecting anyone. I just feel so pathetic and worthless and want to scream at myself get over it, but it just won't go away. Does any of this make sence to anyone? As I feel so alone, theres only so much u can tell ur friends and family about this without them thinkin ur crazy, which most of the time I feel I am anyway.I'm sorry to go into such a rant but feel that no one understands me. I also really need some reassuranse that this tablet does help as I am just gettin tired of the whole situation and what feels like a constant fight. Hopefully there is someone out there who feels or has felt the same way and understands (althought I don't wish this feelin on anyone, because its the worst thing I have ever experienced and just won't seem to go away). If you took the time to read this, thank you and if you have felt the same then please reply and let me know if sentraline (or any other tablet) has worked for you.