I am 41. I have been suffering anxiety for 10 years and because it knocked my confidence and esteem, I became depressed. Except for a short stint in Citalopram a couple of years ago (20mg) which did nothing for me, Last summer my anxiety came to an all time high, I couldn't sleep, was agitated, couldn't see the point of tomorrow, was having obsessive thoughts etc I have been on 140mg lofepramine for 8 months now ( 1x70mg morning and night) and although I don't feel quite as bad as I did las summer, I really can't say if this drug is helping as it should.
The side efffects I have on them are very similar to many others of you on here, constipation, speedy heart rate which sometimes goes on to palpitations and waking in the night. I read an older post on here from a man who said that he gets feelings of despair and then uncontrollable crying which I seem to as well and I am not normally like this. Also, when I get a stomach upset and do go to the toilet, it seems to make my anxiety worse, I am not quite sure if this is because it is a bout if nerves/anxiety that sets off the need for the toilet or that I relate those symptoms to being anxious, either way it puts me in a very low mood.
I still have little enjoyment of things, even though I try so hard to get up and do things. I go swimming, walk a lot etc but I just sometimes don't feel connected with anyone or see the point of anything. Do any of you out there think I need to go higher, or try something in addition to this? My Doc who is really good has advised to stay on 140mg and take our time with getting better as going higher isn't always the answer to getting better quicker. I am on the wait for a mental health assessment to have some psych help as CBT didn't really do anything for me. I am seeing a counsellor through anxiety UK who is very good but she can't prescribe obviously. I am just confused with what I feel, is it me, or is it the side effects of the drugs or something inbetween?? I have also recently started to volunteer a couple of days a week to get me back into a work environment ( which is where I get most on edge and panic) but the tablets don't seem to have helped the nerves any. I cry a lot through frustration that I don't feel better with the anxiety, not because I eel depressed ...... Any advice would be great.